11.30.2010

11.03.2010

Wow... He did That For Me???

Ephesians 2 

1 As for you, you were dead in your transgressions and sins, 2 in which you used to live when you followed the ways of this world and of the ruler of the kingdom of the air, the spirit who is now at work in those who are disobedient. 3 All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh[a] and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature deserving of wrath. 4 But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, 5 made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved. 6 And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace, expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus.

 I often have trouble understanding how to reconcile two equal yet opposite understandings of my relationship to God. Reverence vs. intimacy.

God is the omnipotent master and creator of the entire universe. Everything that ever was or will be is His creation and under His complete and utter control. This includes all laws of the physical universe that we know and do not know. Every single molecule on every world in every solar system in every one of the billions of galaxies in our universe or others was placed there by God. It is why we call Him God!

So this God. This great God. The same one who made our planet a speck of dust in an unspeakably vast cloud of galaxies. This God decided to come to our tiny "pale blue dot" in the form of a microscopic man... just so that we could know Him. Just so that His love could be shown. How can I forget to be reverent toward this God? How can I continue to do things that dishonor Him? What makes me feel as though I am bigger than God sometimes, or that I am somehow so important that He does not deserve my service? It is quite ridiculous, the delusional state I live in sometimes.

What is awesome about God is that He has made us so tiny yet He constantly displays His unending and unexplainable love for these infinitely small creatures known as humans. And that is why I am OK with being unable to easily reconcile these two ideas. It is obvious that God doesn't owe me anything, especially an explanation as to why He loves me.


Godspeed,

Christian